I don’t know what’s worse.
Feeling lonely for weeks on end and feeling sick about it.
Or feeling sick on end and crying forever because I’m so terrified of my own feelings.
Want to be in a relationship.
Don’t want to be in a relationship.
I’m not even supposed to be doing this I’m supposed to be gone, vanish off the face of the earth that way when I do no one notices.
What am I doing?